Pauseforamoment

It has been such a source of solace, this time of not working. I don’t think I have done much, or accomplished a lot, but my heart and mind and spirit is at peace and that is the best thing that could have happened. I have decided to go back to work for this last term, which is coming up suprisingly quickly. I think I need to have a sense of closure to my teaching career at this point. It is time for a change, but I need to say goodbye to the old for this last term.

I have so enjoyed the slowness of this time. Waking up as my husband slips out of bed to get ready for work, dozing as he showers, then waking more fully to lie and pray with my eyes closed, seeking my Father as He puts thoughts on my mind. I pray most for others in this time; it is good to be quiet and still and think of these needs.

I can sip my first cup of tea for the day in peace, slowly, allowing my thoughts to run over the day’s plans and my eyes to enjoy the stillness of the morning-garden. I get up to exercise at leisure. My days are mine; time with a friend, gardening, shopping, cooking or learning a new skill. I can seek Him at any moment. I have been writing, too, and am halfway through a little nativity play for our children to perform this Christmas at church.

My husband loves that I am at home, not just because he hasn’t had to pick up an iron or wield the vacuum cleaner, but that I am happy and alive, not battle-weary from work and the cares of life.

This has been a good time.